One thing I love about being an
older woman —
a woman who has excavated and let go of much of the control matrix I was carrying around in my systems and cells ——
is that when I feel attractive,
I let my self enjoy it COMPLETELY.
There’s no looking out into the world for some affirmation of my desirability or granting of permission.
This energy is mine, and is for my pleasure.
This does nothing to diminish the joy I find playing with/in/as
sexual and sensual energy with other people.
Rather, I find my sovereign DESIRE and turned✨on HEART rouses, amplifies + enhances the flows,
opens channels of communication and exchange,
flushes out and washes clear and river-smooths away the old habit glitches that were rooted in co-opted sacred energies and flows,
births possibilities of connection and creation that are unimaginable to my former selves...
The process of multidimensional embodiment, of waking from the twisted enchantments of patriarchy and white supremacy and left-brain domination and colonization of nature, body & soul, can be so challenging and hard on the body. We’ve taken a beating.
Our native, natural trust of ourselves, of our wholeness, was used against us — Once upon a Time. We twisted our energies and patterning in reaction. We forgot the dignity and integrity of our wholeness, and we desecrated the body.
We forgot the divinity of our Pleasure and our JOY.
NOW, we are invited to remember that
it’s okay to truly, deeply
all the feeling,
to enjoy ourselves,
in all the ways.
Freed up and reclaimed sexual vital force is simply your birthright.
The more you enjoy it and let the heart and body in on that enjoyment, the better for all of us.