Lauren Worsh

Work and Writings

Discernment and letting go of the Great Forgetting

I was thinking about forgive but don't forget, that strategy. Wondering what it would be to forgive but not forget inside of an experience that does not rely on fixated ideas and beliefs.
 

In other words, what does it mean to forgive but not forget when the past is no longer needed for navigational guidance? When grievance is extinct? When the heart has awakened its full measure?
 

What if "forgetting" really just means that you agree to drop back into willful ignorance, which requires you to disconnect from your impeccable internal navigational system? Or to blunt it with neglect as you indulge in endless distraction and doubt?
 

To do this as a sort of confused bargain with 'the perpetrator' for your safety: "I'll pretend not to see the energy clearly, if that will keep you from killing, raping, enslaving or engulfing me."

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But who do you think invented that bargain?

And who do you think it benefits?

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Release the past, yes, it's not here anyway.
 

When willing to release false constructs that distort perception and interfere with your clear discernment, you become available to house the higher perceptual and creative capacities of your Being.

Among other things, this surrender confers clear discernment.

When clear discernment encounters the energy patterns and plays of deception and suppression, it recognizes that energy signature instantly.

Every Sovereign being is endowed with discernment.

This power of clear discernment is not one we were ever meant to give away.

Clear discernment is a birth right. As such it cannot be disabled or distorted without our consent.

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So permit yourself to read the energy. And to keep getting better at it.

Once you become impeccable with your word you can allow yourself to trust your capacity to read energy clearly, without agenda.

Integrate continuously.
 

Once self-trust is restored through self-honesty it is discovered that there's no need to hold onto a set of rules and dogma, no need to hold on to knowledge of people's past behavior to know whether they are safe, whether they are fair, trustable, honest.
 

No need to pretend that you can't see clearly what you do see clearly, or that you can't feel what you indeed can and do.

No need to embellish, defend, diminish or deflate your powers. No need to apologize for them, or to ask permission to embody them.

No need to distrust your unique passion.

No need to compensate for your own past mistakes or perceived failings.

 

Navigating well requires none of those things. Those were all adaptations to a condition of perceived deficiency. And perceived threat.
 

Permit yourself Knowledge of your Self.
 

The idea that it is not safe to is from a different time.

Trust

Watching a slideshow of curated photos of Gaia, on an app that does these things, noticing that the one thing all the images have in common other than crazy beauty is that they show no trace of human civilization.

And I'm sinking into it, just gorgeous. Thinking this is the slideshow they show you when you're considering enrolling in that human on earth thing.

So you're all in.

But the human part of it, that's... a mess. You wouldn't be wrong to get weary of it. Beauty there too, sublime, beyond belief. But, until you remember where your peace resides — because that's one thing humans are genius at forgetting — and allow yourself to source there, the pain of humanity may obscure your clarity, your joy, your awareness of why you came. The lie of deficiency may seduce you.

Remember : Eros, who drew you down, will deliver you back to wholeness. Trust Her. When the time comes, your willingness to surrender into this trust will carry you.

Power isn't what you think it is

Our societies may relentlessly seek to seduce us into focusing on power ‘out there’ and love ‘out there’, in order to keep us caught in the felt-sense of powerlessness and lovelessness.

Our unconscious investments in powerlessness may whir along in the pattern that is their habit, under the radar of our self-awareness — creating and recreating the feeling of powerlessness internally.

Same with our unconscious investments in the patterning of unlove.

Even when you are actively challenging your vibrational patterning every day, and inventing new responses on the spot.

Confronted with the awareness of how much remains yet unconscious, it can be easy to dismiss or belittle the impact of your efforts.

Experiment : Power Play : curiosity + restfulness

Next time feelings of powerlessness or lovelessness seem to take over, try this experiment: get really curious. Get curious about what you have no interest in getting curious about, in your inner world or in the world at large.

It doesn’t matter what. Find some sincere curiosity in you and expand its scope to encompass things you’ve never been willing to presence or contemplate before.

Especially powerful is getting curious about the inner world and life experience of someone you don’t identify with at all. The less you identify with them, the more ‘other’ they feel to you, the more power in the process. And the more your actual power of wholeness liberates into your field of access.

The restfulness creates space, curiosity explores the new space. It's a pulsation.

The practice is to notice the subtle quality along the spectrum of
restful <———> restless
that you are meeting the moment with, and to choose in the noticing to allow more restfulness. Even if it’s a one-degree shift it counts.

I find it helpful to say out loud "I choose to allow myself to relax a tiny bit more right now."

Turn the dial down on your spiritual ambition, turn it up on your actual willingness to practice relaxing NOW, even just a little tiny bit.

The benefit comes from training the habit of choosing, not from how spectacularly you can shift your state in any given moment.

Training and rebuilding the nervous system and identity structure to a new fluidity of patterning, an identity responsive as plasma, a remembrance of an inner ease we’ve possibly never known before. Curious about possibilities, restful in the moment presenting.

That’s power.